emotional well being- recent revelations

Allot of people have seen you as confident but you hid your un confidence by acting over confident. You hid allot of things by over compensating for them. But it is time to throw up the veils on this life, put you on show, because it is the you that you love and it is the you that others love they just don’t know it yet. You have come to this epiphany, and finally it is not the world that controls you and you can’t control the world or the people in it, but you own your part of it and you can control that, and from now on you will.


You write the last paragraph and realise you are trying to convince yourself more than anything. You are over it, no regrets you look to the future and put all the pettiness out of your thoughts at least for today. You are better than that, your royal snootiness, and the last thing you want is the insecurities of others impacting on what you want for yourself.

Time out for a second, when you evaluate your own jealousy, what does it really come down too. Woman more so than men thrive on jealousy, they feed on it, whether it be the ammunition against another or the ignition for you to push your life into its direction, even if it’s what you want or not. I think it blinds us, as well as holds us back, for example; you see your friends in a relationship, and you want to be in one, then you feel like you have fallen in love so much that you can’t go to the college you want and settle for a meaningless job at a bank, and eventually that relationship goes sour because, neither of you ever really had the same interest or direction and then you have used up three years for what? So the lesson learnt is set your own goals, stick to them as much as possible, face what ever comes your way with open arms, and hopefully one day you’ll have nothing to be jealous about.