emotional well being - recent revelations cont..

Jealosy ultimately is not worth it, what is it really? A sick feeling at the bottom of your stomach that makes you angry, it makes you hate. And you waste so much time doing it. Time that could be better spent saving to buy that house instead of wishing you were renting it. If you can look at someone in the face and say congratulation, good for you, instead of being jealous it gives you the power, and whatever reaction they’re trying to get out of you will be wasted. With that brings happiness

All of a sudden you realise you have reached the next maturity level in your life without being modest of course.

So you come back some what, to start this story again from a more positive perspective, when you realize what you failed to realize or at the very least failed to notice. What you thought you wanted at this point in time, you don’t really want, you still ultimately want, what you originally wanted and it has taken this five thousand odd words to realize this, the things you thought you wanted were more so, out of spite or jealousy, and what you thought you wanted, didn’t come from the place in you, it should have come from. You still have your priorities but there is no reason you can’t have them and still have things for yourself, really you can’t give your best to others with out doing the best for yourself, there will be sacrifices along the way, if you’re willing to make these sacrifices and still be happy about it, then you know you are making a move in the right direction.